It turns out a friend and mega talented photographer (Joshua Brown) came with us. Pics and video will be coming soon. 🙂
And while the three of us were sitting by the fire, drinking tea after a travel day, Joshua took this photo of me as the firelight and sunlight were just right.
When I looked at it, I loved it. And I also cringed slightly from a memory.
Because my mouth was open.
You see, there was once a man in my life that told me that my mouth was open regularly while we were relaxing and he didn’t like it. He would remind me from time to time to close my mouth when he saw me doing it.
I was so self-conscious of this, I can’t even tell you.
This was before I rebuilt my self-worth from scratch. So stuff like this would really make me feel insecure and humiliated. I wanted so much to be loved and approved of by him, so you bet I tried hard to keep that mouth closed.
But then life moved on and that man was no longer in my life.
And luckily I haven’t thought about my mouth in that way in…a decade+?? Surely I must not do it anymore. I mean, if it was so atrocious, I can only imagine Danny would have said something. haha. I mean, anything to stop that unsightly mouth from being open! 😉 But no. He never said a word. Not a single word.
And here I am, years and years later, sitting at 12,000 feet by the fire after hosting a sold-out/full-house retreat for 7-Days where I taught women about self-worth. And this photographer captures me in that moment. And he shows the photo to me, clearly not minding at all that my mouth is open. No, he did not delete this one, but showed it to me proudly.
How I love this photo.
I will cherish this one.
And I will continue to open my mouth whenever I damn well please.
Cheers to healing.
Cheers to being comfortable in our bodies.
Cheers to not being a victim to others’ criticism of our bodies. Blah.
P.S. Have you experienced some type of body criticism like this, too? Hoping for healing for all. XOXO