I’ve been wanting to fill you all in on why I didn’t blog for awhile.
But today I’d like to share more about my break. And practice some vulnerability. And tell you that a few months ago…
I thought I might lose this blog.
As in…I thought it might be time to pursue something else.
Even the thought of it makes me sad.
No doubt it was a devastating time for me as I have given my life to this space for over three years.
We came to Ecuador for a sabbatical from corporate life (Danny was ready for a break!) But it was also a leap to see if this blog could become something that we could do long term. In other words, could this effort that we love generate some livable income – or would we need to go back to a corporate life. Doesn’t that reality just bite? I know many, many face this situation. And unfortunately for me – blogging with no real income was not something I was going to be able to continue to do long term.
So here we were moving abroad so we both could work on this project. You can imagine that I have at least 100 ideas for what I’d like to do here to support this blog community, but until then I just didn’t have the help I needed to get them done. I needed help to run this ship, you know? My steam was thin. If it was going to become a sustainable blog (which I think could be possible), I knew I couldn’t do it alone. Maybe a few years ago I could have. But at this point it was just too much to take on solo. I probably should have hired people much earlier and risked the investment. But Danny was on board. So I held out for that. He truly loves, loves this effort as much as I do.
But, it turns out that when we got here, my dear Danny needed a break from pursuits. This phase of life has been totally new for him, too (not having children and jobs and all – and taking a very, very untraditional path.) And the truth is, he felt anxious. He didn’t have the stamina or energy to blog or work on the related projects we had in mind. It was really a rough time for him personally, which is just a normal tide of life. (He’d love to write about this in the future.)
So back to the blog.
No help. No blog income.
I was feeling like a full time paying job was going to be my new reality soon. And the dreams of continuing this pursuit here would have to come to an end. It was a very sad time for me to see this effort slipping through my fingers. I was trying hard to envision what the next phase would look like.
But, in a very relieving turn of events for us both, we both got a second wind.
Danny had been working on healing and renewing his energy and it really paid off. He has come so far and is seriously on fire! I got a second wind from getting some potential back-up plans together and working on relieving some of the weight I had been feeling. So we are now both wholeheartedly, fully and completely moving forward with this effort here. We’re both feeling so good about being here to give this space our best shot. We are finally (!!) once and for all working on launching some of our ideas. I’ve had these ideas for years and it’s really quite fulfilling to see some of them come together (like the retreat! hello! We did it! And it was INCREDIBLE!) There is more to come.
We’re super excited to see what can come of this. Thousands of lives at this point have been improved and transformed because of the inspiration they find here. We would absolutely love to see this space thrive even more. We would love to make it the best it can be and serve this community in even greater ways.
And now you know some of the ups and downs that go on behind the scene of running this blog. And yes, we had been applying all of our own tactics that we write about for getting through a difficult time (we do truly try to live everything that we write about! It all works every time.) We remain incredibly grateful for your support through all of this. You all have been with us on quite a journey these last 3+ years. We’re thankful for your friendship. We’re thankful to be connected here with you on this journey called LIFE.
Love to all,