Dear Readers – this was my response to Danny’s last email….
I am crying.
I am completely overcome with so much gratitude right now for the grace of God. I cannot tell you how much I know that Heavenly Father has carried me this last year. I have had miracles happen in my life. Miracles. I will tell you more about them. Big ones and little ones. I am crying right now just thinking about how blessed I have been. I never bought into that “God carried me” thing…I always thought, what does that mean, really? But now I know. It’s like I’ve been floating through this last year of being single & divorced. It’s like I’ve been living on a plane that was somewhere between here and heaven because I’ve had so much peace. That’s how blessed I’ve been, despite my circumstances. It has been a miracle to me. And all along the way I’ve been able to keep so very vividly in my mind the beautiful PLAN of this life – and the purpose of my trials and experiences. And somehow I have actually been so grateful for all that I was going through, for it was teaching me how to tap into my divine potential. Anyway, I sit here, on the eve of meeting you (!), and I feel like knowing you has been one of those miracles that God has blessed me with. And it’s because of the woman that I am & am striving to become! And because of the man that you are! There is no way that we could connect in such a beautiful way if we weren’t both living in this way. And living with our hearts and eyes towards God. I will forever be grateful for the words that we’ve been able to share, that we’ve been able to bear our souls and share our hope and kindness and love and friendship with each other as much as we have these last three weeks.
Danny, I love that you love Hard Headed Woman. I am a hard headed woman, you know. haha. I wasn’t before but this last year I have become that. I hope so much that I’ll be your hard headed woman. But if not, I’ll still just be that hard headed woman for someone else…or for my Young Women and Young Men in Brooklyn….or my family…or everyone around me….cause that really is who I want to be.
I just love it that you’ve dreamed of finding a better woman for yourself. I have felt the same about finding a good man. And this time I just know I’ll be so much better matched with my husband. I just know it. I just have such a clearer idea of what matters the most now, so it seems it just couldn’t turn out any other way. But………I always felt like it would just be a miracle to find that person! I never thought this would happen this soon/this easy. And at this level!!! It’s just amazing.
And yes, I, too, am such a better person because of you!!! I love your energy. I can feel it in every word that you write. As I read your emails…it’s like you are articulating everything that I feel, everything that I know to be true. It’s really unbelievable. And by reading it and feeling it, all those things that I hold near and dear in my heart are just so vibrant and full and alive. And I want more than anything to go out and become even a better woman. Danny, you make me melt. I love what you wrote about showing love. Ahhh…..you are such a good man. YES, there is nothing more beautiful in this life than LOVE. And I want to share and feel and express it with just about everyone I come in contact with. Reading your words make me want to be more conscious of it…and to set out each day to just specifically share some love. I am sure great things could happen. How wonderful it would be to be partners with you as we do this together.
I have been sitting here just loving you. And looking at your picture. And listening to beautiful songs.
AND………….well, you may think that my Danny time was delayed tonight. But, I’ve been in Danny mode for awhile because I just spoke for an hour or so with Ashley to discuss how wonderful it is that we are meeting! [note to readers: Ashley is the one who set us up.] After speaking to her, I feel even more at peace and still/calm and happy and excited. And she said after talking to me, and talking to you, that she is amazed at what a good match we really could be on so many levels….she said she could really see it happening, which was cool to know, as she is really the only link that we have between the two of us.
I must get a few things done. So I must go. And please oh please, may I get some beauty sleep tonight !! 🙂
Know that I will say the most heartfelt prayer of thanks tonight, as I have done every night since our paths crossed. But tonight my heart is fuller than it has been to date. I can hardly comprehend how I would feel to be with someone like you….to marry someone like you…..to sit in church by someone like you…….to attend the temple …….and have children…….and serve others together as a couple and as a family……. I don’t think my body could take the gratitude and the love that I would have. I would have to share it with the world!!!!
Goodnight my love and my everything at this moment. Thank you for all that you are and all that you have done for me.
Love you with every bit.
And, so happy to say……..HAPPY FRIDAY!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂
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