Dear Readers – do you want to hear more of the Love Story? For anyone new here, Danny & I were both divorced and single and longing for companions when a friend set us up by email. Danny lived in Boston, I lived in NYC. We were completely on the same page from the beginning and wrote our hearts out for 3 weeks before we met. Here are a few of the next emails we can share from those early days before we met when divorce was raw, being single was raw, yet our hearts were in the right place. [And before we get started, I just wanted to let you know that I have something so fun to show you soon. Danny & I recently were in a photo shoot in Central Park with JONATHAN CANLAS (!) It was extraordinary. Can’t wait to show you the pics.]
Danny, You are killing me here.
That’s Mara language for….I think you are out of this world !!! 🙂 🙂 This feels like a dream. It’s amazing to see that you know about real love. So many people don’t! I’ve had way too much experience with people preoccupied with fantasies, porn, women (or men) with perfect bodies. So many people are sooo sucked into a very sick version of what love really is. Anyway, I dream of being married to a man that does not base his love or desire for me on such fleeting things.
Yes, it would be lovely if he thought I was beautiful as I sit next to him in church or walk by his side. Yes, I hope he will desire me as a woman. BUT………..more than ANYTHING, I hope he will have a love for me founded on “respect, shared commitment to higher ideals, absolute trust, service, partnership, faith, hope, patience, living to bring joy to the other.” (yes, I just cut and pasted that part from one of your emails. Hahaha. It was THAT good. I am telling you, you couldn’t be saying anything to me that would be closer to my every heart’s desire….you are pretty much NAILING everything that I live for…..you really are.) How wonderful would it be to have that long-lasting love, devotion, charity which only comes from loving God first (which keeps priorities pure), then your spouse.
Danny, let me tell you, I can hardly imagine what it will be like with the full package. Holy moly. That would be GOOOOD. And yes, I think men and women DO indeed help our spouses to reach their divine potential!!!! I love that, actually. I love that we could serve our spouse in that way, by instilling in them the desire to be better. I want a spouse that will do that for me!! And I certainly want to do that for my husband.
Thinking of you always, Mara
I’m not sure I can even type…I’m so overwhelmed my body is trembling…it’s as if I’ve got these permanent goosebumps and the chills, but in a good way. I am full – heart, body, mind and soul. There could have been no greater start to my day today than the email I received from you.
I absolutely LOVE the good woman you are and desire to be. I can’t believe that it could actually get better than this, and yet my experience with each passing day tells me, it can, it does, and it will. As for elevating others (especially spouses), I am certain you can do that just by being you! You have done it for me already. I have found myself recommitting to living (not just doing) the principles that bring me joy in part because of you. I find myself kneeling with greater purpose, more things to be grateful for, I ponder and prepare more, I now have evidence, not just belief, that great things can be and are ahead.
And by the way, I will be the first to admit that beauty is enhanced only by all the higher ideals you mentioned. Right? Isn’t real sexy/intimacy the complete giving of yourself? And how can that happen in the way it’s supposed to without all the other stuff? Can I just say that not just a tear, but tears of gratitude came to me as I woke up today and read your email. You are a rare woman indeed, and I will continue to thank God for meeting you, and trust in his timing and wisdom.
Also, when I come to see you, I was originally planning on leaving Saturday morning and leaving Sunday night…but sometimes I think general excitement may just get the best of me and I’d race down after work on Friday…if you’d have me that early. I am at your disposal (so much so that I actually entertained the idea of hoping on a plane when you told me to get there NOW!). I have a long day ahead of me… I will carry you and the hope you bring with me today.
My absolute best to you dear Mara,
and my continued thanks for all that you give me,
Ohhhhh…. myyyyy…. I am shaking my head in disbelief. How is it that we have crossed paths??? I am just dying over here. I read your note this morning and let me tell you, I carried it with me in my heart all day. I am tearing up now as I just reread some of the beautiful words you wrote….specifically that you trust in his timing and wisdom.
Danny, I’ve had moments when I have wondered if I will ever, ever meet someone. I have tried so hard to not let that fear in, but it happens. I have dedicated many hours and hopes and dreams by putting myself out there (even though I haven’t wanted to!) But I believe in marriage, I believe in families, I believe that it can help us progress. And I am addicted to the service that one can give as a spouse…it is just so fun and so fulfilling. So I have done all I can to meet someone. BUT…..I have remained single.
So I have had to just TRUST Him. Why do I fear??? I know I have the tools to handle whatever comes my way. I wouldn’t change a thing about my life. Even the hardest parts. So how dare I worry now. I know that if for some reason marriage is not in my future, or if I don’t marry as soon as I would like…. that if I choose to trust in this beautiful life & not resist this experience, that I will be OK & I’ll still be able to carry out a beautiful mission in life…
Anyway, THANK YOU so much for reminding me to just trust and not have fears about the timing. YOU bring me so much peace. I really can’t believe I feel it so strongly, yet we haven’t met. For now, I am cherishing every moment of this time. I am cherishing every word you send to me. You are uplifting me SO much. You are reminding me of everything that I want in my life – and in my husband!!!!! I feel so honored to know you. Meeting you has been a gift in my life. I am so, so, so thankful for you.
One thing I know…..if I don’t marry you, I will want to marry someone like you. Good night to you …. thanks for making my heart full. And thank you SO much for coming to visit soon. I just don’t think I could’ve waited much longer. These next two weeks may be the longest of my life. 🙂
Ahhh…good-bye for now, Mara