Love Story: More from “Day 1 of Danny + Mara”

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These pictures are of me as a single woman, prior to meeting Danny.  I love seeing photos of me during that time because I truly was so happy, despite the fact that my former husband had just left for good (which, by the way, was the worst thing I ever could have imagined at the time.)  My peace & happiness came because I was putting into practice some strength that I previously never realized I had to this degree.  It was exhilarating.  Most of that strength was fueled by serving/loving other people.  Here I am with some Young Women in Brooklyn….I got to be their mentor during that time of my life, and it was one of the greatest privileges of my lifetime.   This is what I was up to when I met Danny.  🙂

So the Day 1 emails between Danny & Mara continued (did they ever! Remember how I said we knew we wanted to marry each other after Day 1??).  Here is our next correspondence:


Oh my goodness, you just made me melt.  My hand is over my mouth and I am so touched by what you said because I feel exactly the same way about it all.  Wow.  I have learned soooo much about life/love/faith!!!  It just gives me goosebumps.  I think I must have been brain dead to it all my whole life.  Cause I look at my testimony now and it is 1,000 times more what it used to be.  I never had to really put my beliefs to the test until my life seemed to be falling apart.  And then, by some miracle, the gospel all came together for me and I have been a changed woman ever since.  I wouldn’t trade it for anything.  Oh my…. I had no idea how cool the message of Jesus was and here it was in my back pocket the whole time.  And love.  Oh my.  What I’ve learned about how to love and be loved. (as in the unconditional/Christ like love.)  I never really knew specifically how it all worked.  But I do now.  So beautiful.

So yes, we are two very lucky people.  People don’t really understand it when I say I would do it all over again to have what I have now.  To think that I get to be with an eternal companion someday and be a mother some day and live the rest of my life …. from this state…..well, there is NOTHING better to me.

OH, and my parents.  I can’t believe what you wrote about your’s as I feel the exact same way.  Danny, I have become so close to them, too.  They have been my lifeline through this whole thing and the best examples and the best parents to me.  It’s made them closer as well, as they have worked together to support me and be there for me….

Being in limbo while I was waiting for the divorce to go through was difficult.  I hung out with all my married friends and really didn’t even know any single people.  But I was feeling so good about my state of life that I actually felt very ready to date.  And friends were wanting to line me up like crazy… so I had many nights of dreaming about all the guys that I would one day date.  And I hadn’t even met them yet.  hahahha.  Eventually that day came.  I am telling you, it will be such a trip for you to be with a girl.  Or even thinking about a girl.  Or one day touching a girl.  You will die.  It was (& still is) so crazy.  I was married for 7 years.  And never even looked twice at anyone but my husband.  So to all of sudden have the gates wide open….. holy moly.  I remember the first time a guy touched his knee to my knee at dinner.  hahahha.  I thought I might stop breathing.  Same thing touching shoulders with a guy at the movies.  Well, let me just say that you have some fun times ahead of you.  Of course, we know that nothing could compare to being married.  I would just love love to get married again.  But it is pretty wild to be single and to feel like you’re 16 again.

And yes, hot commodities… FOR SURE.  One guy I dated was saying how he never thought he’d date a divorced girl.  And I said, “You know what??? With me, you at least know what you’re getting.  I have been through all this…. and yet here I am all the better for it. With other people, who knows what you’re getting…. who knows what kind of wife/husband they will really be…. who knows how they will react to a trial.”

Well, thanks for writing back.  So nice to hear from you and to hear that we speak the same language.  Just curious, how long were you married?

And yes, can’t wait to meet!



And, OK….I’ll keep going with these emails a tiny bit longer, if you don’t mind…just cause they are jam-packed with some awesome thoughts that were so real and raw, written by two people that had just gone through the greatest trial of their lives.  To me, it was a MIRACLE that we could talk this way about our unwanted divorces & still have this perspective.  Danny, I can see it. But ME?  A couple of years prior, I had no spiritual connection to anything, didn’t know the power I had, and was wondering if I even really believed in God.   So trust me, this stuff was monumental for me.   🙂

OK, here is Danny’s response….and some photos from his bachelor days…best love story

best love story

Dear Mara,
All I can say is Exactly! I always thought I knew what charity and unconditional love were, but now know I hardly had a clue. It was nothing short of a heaven sent miracle to me – to be wronged in the most intimate of ways, and then choose (key word there) to put aside the anger and hurt, and suddenly find yourself filled/washed over with this situationally unnatural compassion that says, “Forget about yourself for a while, you’ll be fine in due time. Focus instead on how you can help her put her life back together, if she’ll let you help. If not, do what you can as a friend and support.” When that happened, I realized – kind of like in Matt 7 when Christ talks about even evil parents know how to give good gifts – if I in my wounded and overall imperfect state, can be filled with this level of compassion/concern/love for someone who betrayed me, how great must be the love of God in all his perfection. It gave me a great deal of hope.

I’m glad I am not alone in my understanding of that priceless knowledge.

In answer to your question – I had been married 4 ½ years, the last year of which was in separation (though fortunately on the friendliest of terms).  And you’re right, spending some time alone/with married friends and not rushing to fill the void is exactly what let me know that I was indeed ready to date when the time was right.  I’ll have to remember what you said about knees and shoulders – I never knew they were such a sensitive part of a woman’s body :). (actually you’re right, now that I think about it, what I wouldn’t give for a little knee on knee…kind of pathetic)

One question – did you find that you were more open/honest than other people were used to? I’m not sure if I was always like this…I guess I vaguely remember when dating that it was like we all needed this filter that helped us say the right things to maintain aloofness or to make sure that every thing sounded right and we appeared to be the ideal mate.  Marriage must weed that out of us because the opposite becomes true – hiding behind a filter does you no good. Anyway, I feel like I weirded someone out a little because I wasn’t thinking about the normal filter of coolness.
Kind of like now…no filter :).

Seriously, your emails have made my day. I’ll give Ashley a big hug when I go have dinner with them tomorrow.

Best to you,

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  1. Melissa September 30, 2011 at 6:47 pm - Reply

    I love reading these!

  2. Sara Borg October 2, 2011 at 1:50 am - Reply

    Another touching post. I've recently had the same thoughts about dating divorced men as you did Mara about yourself. You know they can commit and that even through some of the hardest experiences they've remained faithful and soft hearted. That's huge! And I love what Danny said about filters. Even though I have never been married I am so sick of the dang filter. Be real. Be you. It's best that way. Keep these coming! Love you both!

  3. mara2 October 2, 2011 at 11:16 pm - Reply

    Oh, Sara – a few days before I found out about Danny, I told some friends that I decided that my new thing was I wanted to find someone who had been married before. And then 4 days later I was introduced to Danny. Anyway, being open to it is great! The ones that have handled divorce in an honorable way are the best guys on the planet.

  4. debsfreckles October 19, 2011 at 5:00 am - Reply

    I also have the opportunity to be a mentor to some young women, and they really need mentoring. I know those girls were blessed to know you and I am going to be sharing some of the things you have said with my YW because would benefit from it. A lot of the things you have talked about I already practice in my life (some I need to start), but I have not really thought about them and did not know how to teach them. You have, thanks for sharing.

  5. blossominghydrangea October 30, 2013 at 9:14 pm - Reply

    Oh my gosh! I love reading these! I found your post through google about worrying about men looking at other women and tried to comment but they weren't allowed. I want to say that post made me feel a lot better! I'm only 20 years old but I find that throughout my teenage relationships I always felt so jealous and freaked out on whoever I was dating. It even ruined a relationship. Now I am in a relationship with the guy who I know will be my husband, and I've been feeling a bit of jealousy lately (for no good reason, he is amazing to me, all of his friends are guys, he never talks about women, and he is very respectful). I've been trying to get over my jealousy and feelings of worry on my own instead of talking to him about it! So I decided to see what Google had to say and came across your amazing post. I loved reading the comments and all the different opinions as well. It helped me feel better about the situation and I think I may even bring it up with him so that we have a mutual understanding and both feel more comfortable; I don't want it to be a taboo subject. Anyways, then I started reading your blog from the beginning and I AM IN LOVE. I'm going to spend my night reading your love story! This is such a great blog and I'm looking forward to reading more. Thanks for sharing Mara!

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